恩典留痕–Harvard Pest Control 免费帮我们做白蚁处理

4/18, 我们教会地基的下水道安装之后,Sam牧师有一个朋友,名叫Paul McMurray, 是Harvard Pest Control 的老板 ,当他得知我们要建堂,就主动提出来为我们新堂地基免费做白蚁处理。为他的爱心献上感恩,愿主纪念他的付出,祝福恩待他!

On April 18h, after the drain system was installed in the church land,  Mr. Paul McMurray, the owner of Harvard Pest Control and the friend of pastor Sam Foreman, was willing to offer the free termite treatment for us! His employee did a very good job on the land! Thanks a lot!

Praise the  Lord for this gentleman’s love and generosity! May the Lord bless you !

建堂--地基处理


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恩典留痕 - 美国弟兄Van帮我们教会新地清理杂草

昨天早晨(Aug., 22nd) , 英文堂的弟兄 Van Halfacre 来到我们教会新买的地,为我们的弟兄姊妹们义务,不计任何报酬地剪草和清除灌木丛,天气非常的热,他没多久就全身被汗水浸透了。但是他没有任何抱怨,默默地帮助我们!

等下午3点钟左右的时候,我再去看那块地的时候,见到了非常整齐平整的地面,我们为着这位弟兄无私的帮助和在主里面的爱,来到这面前献上感恩!愿主赐福给他,施恩与他!

特地撰文留念! 感谢主!

Dawson

 

 

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恩典留痕 - 有人赠送给我们教会长凳 Pews

昨天 (8月15日), Hardy Street Baptist Church 的执事 Josh Moudy弟兄发信给我,说他的朋友要捐给我们教会22条长凳,可以让我们教会以后崇拜的时候用上。感谢这位弟兄的爱心和慷慨 ! 更是感谢这位创造天地万物的主宰,祂的供应,祂的恩典够我们用!

祂必居高处,祂的保障是磐石的坚垒,祂的粮必不缺乏,祂的水必不断绝。—赛33:16

 

特以此文纪念神的大爱!- Dawson

恩典留痕 -HCCC建堂买地经历神的带领

我的意念非同你们的意念,我的道路非同你们的道路。  天怎样高过地,照样,我的道路高过你们的道路,我的意念高过你们的意念。 -以赛亚书55:8-9

自从2012年初我们教会成立以来,迄今为止已经进入第六个年头,一直以来,承蒙主的恩典, Hardy Street Baptist Church 一直给予我们华人教会无私的帮助,不求回报的付出,他们提供给我们敬拜神的场所,可以使用他们的厨房,主日学教室和办公室。我们特别为他们在主内的关爱和扶持献上感谢!

我们教会执事会和会众在去年年底一致通过决议,我们需要有我们自己敬拜的场所,不能长期做“啃老族”,这也对我们弟兄姊妹们在灵命上的成长有帮助,也是对我们信心的一次检验。

开始的时候,我们有三种方案去建堂:第一是购买一个烧毁的牙医诊所i(因为位置很好,只是占地面积小),在此基础上我们翻新成一个礼拜堂;第二种方案是购买一个现成的场所;第三种方案是在一个地理位置优越的街旁买一块地,然后弟兄姊妹自己参与设计、选材和建造。最后执事会考察了一段时间,一致通过第三种方案,觉得这个是最好的选择。

4月初,HSBC[Hardy Street Baptist Church 我们的母会]执事Josh Moudy,他的妈妈是一位地产经纪,听说我们要买地,就给我们介绍了一个位于西四街(W 4th Street)的一块地方,位于 Turtle Creek Mall的北面,卖主要价5万5千美金(1.5 英亩,相当于4万左右一英亩),我们觉得很不错,正准备签署协议的时候,第二天早上卖主突然告诉我们要加价到7万5千美金。我们执事会商议之后觉得很难接受,就决定放弃购买这块地。

不可思议的是,当天下午,Josh 的妈妈告诉我,说Josh 开车在Oak Grove Road上经过,看到有一块地私卖,位置很好,4英亩地仅要价7万2千美金,相当于1万8一英亩,当天早上才挂的牌,时间点正是西四街那块地的卖主变卦要高价,而我们正好放弃的时候,神的时间真是奇妙啊!这算不算一个神迹呢?感谢主!

当天下午我和Josh就开车一起看了那块地,看后觉得这地真是太好了,四周环境优美,几乎和每一位弟兄姊妹的家庭都很近,位置非常不错,离学校和Larmar County的图书馆也不远。我们的执事会和会众都觉得这块地很理想!比那个西四街的地还要好!感谢主!

但是我们当时凑到的款项不到5万,还有3万左右的缺口才能全额买地(我们不想在买地的时候向银行贷款,而是在建造的时候贷款)。而且更重要的是,这块地位于居民区(residential area), 不是商业区域, 居民区的地卖得很便宜,所以我们才得到这么好的价钱,如果这块地时位于商业区,起码50万左右。但是在商业区可以直接建堂,而在居民区必须向County申请才能建造,我们如果申请,有被拒绝建堂的可能性,尽管可能性很小。

所以,那时候我们面临着2种挑战:第一是我们的买地款还差3万多,而我们离交接期不到一个月;另外一个挑战就是即使我们买下来这块地,不一定能够在政府申请到建堂的许可。

我们把这种情况通知给执事同工和会众之后,要求大家齐心协力为这2件事情祷告。愿主按照祂自己的旨意成就我们的购地计划。因为这是神家的事情,神自己会来掌管。

这是一个信心的功课,需要弟兄姊妹们在这件事上一起来经历神的信实和恩典。虽然我们里面有小信的人,有世俗的迷惑和那恶者的搅扰,但是神在一个清晨,当我从睡梦中醒来,脑海里浮现的就是约书亚带领以色列人过约旦河的情景:当以色列人准备进入神给他们的应许之地迦南美地,可是约旦河挡住了他们的去路,他们也迷惑了,他们信心也软弱了,可是神让那抬着约柜的祭司们到河边,当他们凭着对神的应许的信靠,迈开脚步,当脚尖碰到河水的霎那,从上流来的水从此处断绝,立起成垒。河床变成干地,让以色列人平安度过约旦河。

这个场景对于我来说是如此的清楚,我觉得这是神给我的清晰的印证-只要我们凭着信心往前走,即便是碰到一些难处,但是神的带领会让我们看到,他在我们哈蒂斯堡华人教会的旨意,一定能成就。

跟着在接下来的3个星期,神感动弟兄姊妹们积极奉献,建造神的家,我们的建堂基金是每周有1万美金的进账,捐款数目从几百美金到3-5千不等,还有的家庭奉献1万美金,在离签署购地合同的不到一周的时间,我们的购地基金超过了7万2千美金,三万美金的缺口在不到一个月凑齐。对于我们这样的小教会,真是个神迹!感谢主,也特别为Josh的妈妈Ms. Caroll 献上感恩,因为她完全是为我们义务帮忙,没有收取任何的费用(卖主是私卖,也没有给她中介费),也愿主保守祝福那些为建造神的家而甘心乐意奉献的弟兄姊妹们,特别摘录一段经文与大家共享:

10 万军之耶和华说:“你们要将当纳的十分之一全然送入仓库,使我家有粮,以此试试我,是否为你们敞开天上的窗户倾福于你们,甚至无处可容。” 11 万军之耶和华说:“我必为你们斥责蝗虫[a],不容它毁坏你们的土产,你们田间的葡萄树在未熟之先也不掉果子。” 12 万军之耶和华说:“万国必称你们为有福的,因你们的地必成为喜乐之地。” [玛拉基书3:10-12]

特别有意义的是最后一段经文好像是为我们预备的,我们这些人是被称为蒙福的,这个地必成为见证,不但见证了哈城的华人在这里有蒙恩的确据,而且也向这里的经过的每个人见证了上帝的恩典、信实和慈爱。

在这里特别说一个小插曲,与那个西四街卖主毁约加价的做法不同的是,这个OakGrove新卖主最早接受的是我们的offer,尽管有新的offer进来,而且出的价格比我们的高出2000多美金,但是他没有接受新的那个,而是给我们执事会额外的时间来商量,讨论,直到做出决定签署购买合同。感谢主,愿主祝福他!

也特别感谢Josh和他的妈妈在整个过程中所做的一切沟通,完成购买合同和过户文件,他们是完全无私的不求回报的付出。求主眷顾他们在主内的爱心和摆上!

接下来,就是要向Larmar County 申请建堂许可,在6月13号的听证会上,尽管有人反对我们在那里建堂(理由是建立教会会使那地方的物业贬值,而且也不喜欢非本地人在那里建堂!其实上述的2点理由都是无稽之谈),感谢主,planning department的5个工作人员一致赞成我们建堂。在7月5号的district supervisor board meeting的决议会上,区监督们也是5-0通过了我们的建堂申请。感谢主的带领!

接下来的安排就是我们执事会带领弟兄姊妹们规划外观设计和里面的格局,以及银行贷款(20万以内)! 希望我们能够早日搬进新的堂所去敬拜主,愿荣耀和颂赞归于天父和我们的救主基督!

(未来的 HCCC 礼拜堂外观蓝图)

by Dawson Zhang 张道山  7/12/2017

恩典留痕 - 雨忽然停啦!

今天(8月6日)午餐后号召HCCC的弟兄姊妹们去教会新买的地盘和广告牌留影,去的过程中下起了瓢泼大雨,但是到达目的地之后没多久雨就忽然完全停了。主耶稣真的很赐福给我们!感谢祂! 真是进一步验证神的话语:

“万军之耶和华说:万国必称你们为有福的,因你们的地必成为喜乐之地。(玛拉基书‬ ‭3:12‬ ‭)

 

特以此文纪念主的恩典!

 

John Zhang’s testimony (丁丁的受洗见证)

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Hello! My name is John. Today I’m sharing with you why I want to believe in Jesus.

He is the Savior.

He died on the cross to save me.

He forgave me for my sins.

He sent us the Bible (God’s teaching).

He never sins.


Now I want to tell you about an experience I witnessed with God: I once lost two books,

one from my classmate, and the other one from the church library. I felt very sad, so I

prayed to God that night. Then I figured out that the book from my classmate was in


school. The next day, a teacher found the other book and gave it back to me, so now I


read the Bible everyday and pray four times a day.


After I get baptized, I will listen to my parents when they try to discipline me, I will


follow the Bible teaching, and I will love others like I love myself. Thank you.

John Zhang

 



我的名字叫John,今天我要跟你分享为什么我要信耶稣。


1、他是救主,     他为救我们死在十字架上;

2、饶恕我们的罪,   

3、他赐给我们圣经,

4、他从来没有犯罪。


现在我想告诉你我的一个经历来见证上帝:有一次我丟了两本书,


一本是从我同学借来的,另一本是从教会图书馆借来的,我非常难过。


所以在那天晚上我向上帝祷告, 后来我想起从我同学借来的书在学校,


第二天我的老师帮我找到了另外一本书并把它还给我。所以我现在每天都读圣经并且一天祷告


四次。我受浸以后,要听父母的话当他们向教导我的时候,我会遵守圣经的教导,我会去爱别


人就向爱我自己一样,谢谢!

Faith(郑绪丽) 姊妹的受洗见证

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亲爱的弟兄姐妹们,主内平安! 今天是一个非常特别的日子。我很高兴可以在主里可以重生,获得新的生命。我是来到美国的时候经过一户美国寄宿家庭带领我信主的。我还认识了一位美国的老奶奶,她是一位让我敬佩和爱戴的老奶奶。她是非常爱主的,从她身上可以看出她活出了主的样式。记得在2003年的一个晚上,下班回家的路上把手臂摔断,在那三个月的时间里没办法工作,而且没有经济上的来源。感谢主啊!主耶稣安排了这位老奶奶对我无微无至的照顾,并且没有收我的房租。我非常的感动,让我领受到神的爱是何等的长阔高深。我非常感谢主让我先生Danny在2013年信主受洗了。自从他信主后,我感觉到神在他身上做工,我们的婚姻也更加和睦。他以前暴躁的脾气也没有那么急了。每当我们夫妻俩遇到不如意的事,我和Danny也一起来祷告,把一切重担和生活的琐碎都交给主耶稣。我们都会感到有主的同在。让我们心里有平安。
在此,我非常感谢英文堂的弟兄姐妹一起来见证这个特别的日子和对我们华人教会的大力帮助。也感谢我们的牧师和师母为我常常的祷告和教导。并鼓励我参加姐妹读经群,也特别感谢可斌姐妹这几个月为我们受洗的几个弟兄姐妹教导学习浸礼课程。感谢我们天上的父,将一切荣耀,赞美归给我们天上的阿爸父,主耶稣基督,阿们!

Faith’s Testimony

I am so happy today to share my testimony, today is a new beginning for me and I am glad to celebrate my rebirth in Jesus Christ with everyone.

I accept Jesus Christ as my savior when I came to US in my foster family. Another person helped me a lot in this journey is one american lady who let me live in her house without charging me. In 2003, I broke my arm on my way back home and could not work for three months. Without work and without a penny, I stayed with her in her house. She took very good care of me and I thank our Lord to send this Lady to help me at that time. I was deeply touched and felt God’s love through her.

I thank our Lord, I see changes in my husband Danny’s life after he was baptized in 2013. He is not bad tempered anymore and our marriage becomes more and more harmony. We begin to pray and learn to lay down our burdens to God whenever we had any troubles in our life and we feel God is with us all the time and our heart is filled with peace and joy.

I like to thank all the brothers and sisters in Hardy street baptist church, thanks to your help and support for our Chinese congregation. I like to thank our pastor, dawson and his wife joyce, for their prayers and teachings and encouragements. I learned a lot by joining the bible reading group at Wechat. I also like to thank sister Kebin to lead us in the baptism study group. I especially like to thank our heavenly father, our Lord Jesus Christ. May all the praises and glory to our Lord Jesus Christ, Amen!

于志云姊妹的受洗见证

  主对我的爱不离不弃

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大家好!感谢主赐给我这个宝贵的机会,来和大家分享我的信主历程。
从小我是跟随我的母亲信主,母亲常告诉我:“凡事祷告,主能帮你。”
后来,离开家上学直至上大学,每当遇到不同的困难时,我都相信“叩门必开门,寻求必寻见”。甚至大四那年,父亲的突然去世,母亲的生病,我都没有惧怕我们这个家会过不下去。虽然有时去教堂,也会哭得稀里哗啦。主真是帮助我们一家度过了难关,因为三年后,母亲基本上能干较轻的农活,小弟也考上了重点高中,我也有了工作。
更蒙上帝祝福的是,我认识了现在的老公,我们一起面对生活中的种种难题。随着大女儿的降生,弟弟也参加了工作,母亲也来到了郑州生活。家里生活的各方面都有了很大的改善。
但是2013年年初,当大弟弟被诊断出肝癌晚期,医生说他最多再活三年时,我惧怕了,也难以接受这个事实,因为他刚刚32岁。此时的我开始抱怨上帝:“主啊,为什么当我的生活有所起色时,又一个磨难临到我家人身上。”所以,当母亲让我托牧师代祷时,我很反对,认为代祷也没有用。后又加上工作上的压力,使我一度很烦躁,脾气也越来越坏,时常对家人大呼小叫,原来没有白发的我,一年后长出了许多白发,后又查出乳腺增生,导致我有时连家人和孩子都想不管不问。一次去教堂,牧师讲到“凡事都是主的应许和美意时”,我的心稍稍释然了。这里要说的是我的老公也是来自于一个信主的家庭,当我的公公告诉我和我的老公该受洗时,我就祷告说:“主啊,我是个罪人,我以前得罪了您,您让我经历如此的磨难,也是有您的美意,求您把平安赐给我,若我大弟的生命能超过三年,我就受洗归主。”

后来,学校正好有出国访问的机会, 来到哈蒂斯堡,遇见王老师和朱老师,当我加了他们的微信后,才知道二位都是基督徒时,我心里充满了希望,这真是主的应许和安排让我来到了这里。但是初到美国的种种不适应,让我犹如笼中之鸟,一度很难受。而这一改变要从3月20号在Jackson的春令会上说起,当唱到一首歌《你的爱不离不弃》时,我的眼泪就止不住往下流,所以当天我就决志受洗。在国内,由于工作的原因,这个决定一直被搁置。而且至那天后,我的内心充满了喜乐和平安,原来所有的忧虑和困扰没有了。慢慢地,在教会众多兄弟姊妹及访问学者的帮助下,我和孩子的生活和学习也都步入了正轨。我知道,所有的这一切帮助都来源于主耶稣的大爱。

细细回想,从小至今,当我经历了不同的挫折和磨难时,抱怨过,彷徨过,但是我们的主耶稣一直陪伴着我,对我不离不弃。
感谢主对我的垂爱,我的帮助从他而来。也借此机会谢谢华人(Hattiesburg)教会的众多弟兄姊妹对我的帮助。感谢主,愿我的见证能使神得荣耀!
谢谢大家的聆听!

于志云

God’s love never fails

Good morning, thanks to our heavenly father that I can share my testimony with everyone today!

I accepted Jesus when I was a child since my mother is a christian and she often told me that “ God can always help you when you asked the Lord to help”. This teaching follows me in my life, from the moment I left home until I went to college, I always believe in “when you knock, he will open the door for you” . Whenever I had any troubles in my life, I know God is there to watch me and help me.

My father suddenly passed away in my senior year in college and my mother can not accept his sudden death and got very sick and could not work on the farm works anymore, I trusted in God and believed that we could get through the hard time with God’s help!  When I went to church,  I still cried out sometimes for my family situation, but our God really helps our family get through all these hardships , after three years, my mother could handle  some easy farm works, my younger brother was accepted by a very good high school and I found a job in the city.

Another good thing happened in my life is that I get to know my husband. We can together face any of our life hardships. Our lives are having a great improvements with the birth of our daughter,   my brother also found a job and my mother came to Zhengzhou city to live with us.

As things are getting better, another hurdle happened in our family,  in 2013  my eldest young brother was diagnosed with late stage liver cancer, the doctor told us he could only live for 3 month. I could not accept this fact and I got scared because he was only 32 years ago.  Now I started to complain to God : “ why our family have to go through one after another hardships”. I refused to listen to my mother when she asked me to send a prayer request to our pastor, because I didn’t believe it would help.

At the same time, I was facing huge stresses with my job and started to lose my tempers , yelled at my family members , as a result my own health became worse, my hair turned into grey color  from pure black, and also I got breast hyperplasia. At that time, I had no interest to take care of my child and my family members. One day I went to church and the message topic of that day was “Everything is the Lord’s promises and good intentions”, I felt much better after hearing the sermon.

What I want to mention here also is  that my husband is from a christian family,  when my father-in-law told us to get baptized, I started to pray to God “ my Lord, I had already suffered  a lot in my life, please give me the courage to face  my brother’s cancer diagnose and give him three more years to live in this world, then I will get baptized”.

Later, I had a opportunity to come to US for visiting and I started to have the thought of getting baptized . To be honest, I am not so sure that I can be baptized in US.  I see hopes after I learned from Wechat that my colleagues Dr. Zhu and Mr. Wang are christians.  It is so true that “Everything is the Lord’s promises and good intentions”.

My life changed in March 24th when I went to the spring retreat in Jackson. The beginning hymn on that day was  God’s Love Never Betray,  when I heard the song, I could not hold my tears and decided to follow our Lord for my rest life.   This decision was delayed in China due to so many reasons, now I felt no more worries and only filled with joy and peace.

I felt like a bird in the cage when I first came to US, now I feel settled and enjoy the life here with the help of so many brothers and sisters in our church and so many visiting scholars in USM. I know all these are all coming from the great love of our Lord Jesus Christ.

I know God is with me all the time and He  never forsake me, though I have been through sufferings, complains, and hesitations. May my testimony glorified our LORD Jesus Christ!

 

Zhiyun Yu

李新祥弟兄见证/Testimony of Bro. Li

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各位弟兄姊妹, 平安!

很高兴能在这里跟各位分享我的经历, 见证主的伟大!

从我记事起, 我妈妈就是一个虔诚的基督徒. 所以从小我就跟妈妈去教会, 听过许多圣经故事和神的话语. 在我妈妈孜孜不倦的祷告中, 在上帝的保守下, 我度过了一个有神同在的快乐童年.

小学快毕业时, 我经历过一次沉重打击: 学校校长在全校大会上不指名批评我信主是搞封建迷信. 那次会议令我记忆犹新. 从此我不敢在别人面前说我信主了. 上中学后, 我开始住校, 渐渐接受了教科书上的唯物主义世界观. 我不再去教会参加礼拜, 也不再祷告, 与耶稣渐行渐远. 但我妈妈一直在为我祷告, 一有机会就传福音给我. 可惜那时我太自以为是了, 我从一个相信神的人变成了一个抵挡神的人. 我总是拿教科书上的唯物论驳斥我妈. 有时还暗暗窃喜我能驳倒我妈妈,让她哑口无言. 几乎每次我妈妈试图给我们传福音, 最后都成了家庭成员的一场大辩论. 最终结果往往是谁也说服不了谁, 不欢而散. 来到这里后, 听了王老师和于老师的见证, 才知道这么多年我妈妈为我祷告, 我蒙受了上帝多么大的祝福, 却不自知, 还以为是自己应得的. 以为一切都是靠我的努力得来的.

工作以后, 工作和生活的压力我越来越不开心, 变得很浮躁(其实已经很久不快乐了,只是工作后更明显罢了). 其实整个中国都不怎么开心, 都很浮躁. 许多人戾气很重. 常会因为一点小事而导致杀人流血的事件. 还有很多人为了经济利益做了太多缺乏敬畏和没有底线的事情.

那时我开始认真思考, 唯物论的终极推论也许就是不择手段, 最终走向灭亡. 或许这个世界真的需要一个”神”, 因为只有”神”才能消除人身上的这些罪恶. 最近几年国内佛教非常兴盛, 很多地方新建了佛像(大部分是处于经济利益考虑), 同事也有不少人信仰佛教. 受此影响我独自去西藏感受佛教圣城的魅力. 我确实感受到了佛教文化的博大精深,但是, 那也只是一种文化, 是一种人为创造出来的东西, 那不是神! 我又回过头来重新研读圣经, 我想用科学和唯物主义来解释圣经, 希望能找到一个明确的答案, 可是我失败了. 我发现当我用批判的思想, 唯物主义的思想来读圣经的时候, 我读不下去, 也读不懂. 因为我缺乏敬畏和顺服神的心! 所以我一直没有找到解决问题的方法, 一直浑浑噩噩的过了这么多年.

今年初, 神安排我来到USM访学一年. 其实最初的目的只是能有一年时间不用上课, 可以好好做科研, 多发几篇文章, 好回去后评职称. 但直到上个月去杰克逊参加春令会的时候, 我的想法还是这样, 那是我那时最看重的事.

感谢神奇妙的安排, 让我来到这里, 他把我放到了一群基督徒的中间! 在这里我重新感受到了小时候才有过的那种久违的喜乐和平安. 我切身感受到了什么叫如鱼得水, 久旱逢甘霖. 感谢上帝, 也感谢牧师和身边众弟兄姊妹传福音给我, 解决了我的许多疑问, 让我明白了神的伟大和慈爱.
受洗前的一周, 我想了很多, 以前的生活像电影一样在我眼前经过. 我曾犯的罪, 曾经的迷茫和彷徨如同昨日再现. 我深切的感受到主对我的爱. 正如可斌姊妹给我们讲福音的时候所说的: 在我刚强, 喜乐的时候, 我看到我的身后有两双脚印, 我很高兴, 因为我知道那是神与我同在. 但是当我软弱, 迷茫的时候, 却发现身后只剩下一双脚印. 我痛苦的责问神: 神啊, 为什么在我最需要你的时候你却离弃了我呢? 神说: “傻孩子, 你身后那双脚印, 不是你的, 而是我的, 是我一直在背着你前行啊”! 是的, 现在我很清楚, 耶稣他从来都没有抛弃我, 是他一直背着我, 我才能走到今天, 感谢主耶稣!

Brothers and Sisters, peace! I am very glad to share my testimony with you to witness the Lord’s grace!

My mother is a devout Christian since my childhood, and I always went to church with her when I was young. So I had heard of many Bible stories and the Word of God. With my mom’s supplication and God’s blessing, I had a happy childhood.

After high school, I gradually accepted the teaching of materialism from the textbook. I didn’t worship the Lord nor pray any more. But my mother kept praying for me all the time, and she seized every opportunity to share the gospel to me. Unfortunately, I was too self-righteous, I always use materialism to refute my mother. Every time my mom tried to share with me God’s words , and finally it became a debate between the family members.  This argument resulted in the fact that nobody could convince the other without joy.

After I found a job, I feel unhappy and empty in my heart. Also I find that there is impetuous mood widespread throughout China everywhere. A small disagreement may lead to bloodshed events. For the economic purpose many people have been doing a lot of things without the sense of fearing God.

At that time, I realized that the ultimate corollary of materialism may be unscrupulous, and eventually leads to death. Maybe the world really needs a “God” because only “God” can eliminate these evils. I came back to re-read the Bible, I try to use science and materialism to interpret the Bible, hoping to find a definitive answer, but I failed! I found that when I try to use the critical attitude to read the Bible, I cannot understand it,

I can’t understand for lacking of fearing and obedient heart to the God.

 

Earlier this year, God arranged me to visit the USM for one year. But until last month, before the Chinese Christian church retreat meeting in Jackson, My primary purpose is to writing more papers to earn my professor title after I come back to china. This is what I was most valued thing at that time.

Thanks for the wonderful arrangement of God, and he put me in the middle of a group of Christians! At here I felt the kind of joy and peace I ever felt only when I was a child. Thank God, and thank my brothers and sisters around me who have preached gospel to me, to let me know the greatness and love of God.

These days, I thought a lot about my life. My previous life is like a movie appears before me. I deeply felt God’s love for me. As sisters Kebin told me about the story of footprint: when I am strong and full of joys I saw two pairs of footprints behind me, I am very happy, because I know that God is with me! when I am weak and confused , I found only one pair of footprints on the sand land. I questioned God: Why does you forsaken me when I needed you most. God said: “silly boy, the footprints on the sand land are not yours but mine. It is me who is carrying you to go forward.” Yes! God never abandoned me! Without him, I can’t go forward to now. Praise the Lord!